November 2, 2009 A.D., Day 32 - 148 to go :|

I never cease to be amazed at how sickening the "corrections" system is, how corrupt, how demeaning, condescending, abusive, humiliating, freedom stealing, ad infinitum!

Moments ago I discovered that full grown adults who are placed (according to the other oppressed gentlemen in here) on this awful product called "probation" (which is ridiculously long periods of time, expense, and humiliation) have a curfew! "Are you freakin' kidding?" I could hardly contain myself. Some fathers and mothers have to be at their homes no later than 9 PM. If there is anything that frosts my hiney, this is it. I am outraged. Sure, this may seem like some small detail that could be easily overlooked as unimportant to you, because you aren't the one that has been dragged into their system against your will… "so what? Aren't they bad people who hurt others?" No! They are mothers and fathers, business owners, pastors, employees, contractors, etc., When I was duped into joining the military years ago, something I never thought would ever occur, something so insanely humiliating… dressed up as anything but hat it was really for was called "The Buddy System." We could not step one foot anywhere in port cities without a "buddy/" That infuriated me. I hated it! Who are they to judge what I do? Well, I was property (literally) of the federal government. One size fits all. I don't think I have ever been insulted quite like that. My friend Rick in here (and yes Mom, I'm making friends in jail, sorry) is a grandfather. You may think these guys or girls are bad people and it doesn't matter because it's not happening to you. Look, probation, first of all doesn't work. It is designed to keep the dollars coming in to the private corporations that run the courts like they are stuck in a rotating door. There isn't one "Corrections" Officer who does not disagree with me (on that topic) but then again where does their $ come from? If they can keep humans caged for longer periods of time it means more revenue, more hours, better choices for shifts, bigger budgets, etc.… you know the government drill, all too well by now, and if you don't, it's time, past time you started standing up for where my wallet gets spent… speaking for myself, jokingly of course. Yes, this stuff drives me crazy. I wish my attitude was better, but I've had a headache since a month ago today. I would love to dance like my friend Yadra was doing when some of you saw him in cell #114.

Change of subject, last night was awesome! The voice of Bill Domenico at the door of the gymnasium was fantastic! Thank you Bill! Sam and Aubern and everyone, you are my heroes and I'm so glad to be around a bunch of cracked nuts like myself. ;)

What we are doing is starting to work, but it's going to take more than just my minor blip on the radar screen. Just after we chatted through the door one of the "Corrections" Officers named Ouelette, one of the less bad guys, sort of (he's being worked on by me but they are bred with mob mentality, it seems at times, of course I'm being sarcastic) came and sat and chatted with me. I think he's starting to see my points but I question if I'm the best candidate as I've specialized in high dollar negotiation warfare for the last 7 years. I get a bit "energetic" about things.

Thank you all for showing up. You all are my heart, if that makes sense. In closing I want to share one of the many anonymous postcards I received today. It's a quote from Ambrose Redmoon, and it reads "Courage is not the absence of fear but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear."

In Great Spirits (at the moment), Yours,

Kurt